Sometimes I am so amazed at what dad is saying that I can’t remember it later. Today as I was leaving he said “It is great that you can glow, in the rain, in the night. Maybe he meant “Go” I realize now and that makes me very sad. But he said it again, the part about, it is good that I can go away for awhile and do things that are good for me. I am not so sure about that. I am not so sure this is the right place for dad. But I suppose that probably I will go and do my usual camping trip and see how he is when I get back.  I hope it is ok.  I hope it is not too hard for him or too hard for me. I have to remember that it is probably at least as ok as it was for him at the end of this time in Arizona before I got him back here. But it still is so hard.